you're the boss apple sauce

Factory girl, oh my days best film i have seen in a while. Looks at the life of Edie Sedgewick and her involvment with Andy Warhol and a guy who looks, acts, sounds and talks like bob dylan but for legal reasons isnt him. So amazing and just wow.
But its troubling as it look at her drug addiction etc. and the 60's is just WOW. but everyone is smoking and its weird because it sort of makes you want to smoke and as they're all lighting up and passing round fags, i felt left out. Maybe i just got too into the film...

Life is sweeeet. :)


i would like to party more please
can someone take me out?

x

18th birthday

best birthday ever :)
lasted for a full on week and a bit

my party was last night, fancy dres obviously! what else would people expect from me and I am so happy with how it turned out :D loads of people came and had an amazing time and most people put the effort it with their costumes which was AMAZING!
there were a few costumes that were rather revealing and also some that were beyond the you're a slut stage :) especially someone who wasn't really invited and i don't really know and got drunk and just starting pushign everyone. BUT it was all good fun.
i promised that i wouldnt feel guilty for anything and let a certain someone make me guilty but there was no need really. i had such a fabulous time and got to see everyone :) but being the hostess with the mostess was hard work and i think i may have failed slightly as the evening went on especially in relation to my marvellous family but i hope they understand :) and of course dancing was amazing and i managed to stay in my heels all night :)

the party and my all time favourite of parties :)
i've always been known for taking photos at all the parties so i made sure i would have the best photos possible from my 18th so i set up a simple white sheet by the entrance so when everyone came in they could have nice photo and they are nice :) easy to photoshop aswell and the lighting was good so any bits round the edges the are just the wall can be just done over in white :) so i lived up to having good photos and MILLIONS of them as well as its taken me all day to do them :)
i'm gonna buy a scrap book and put the best ones in there :D

a bit of drama did occur, my friend matt who had kindly dressed up as me for my party, crashed his car on the way. poor guy :( he passed like the day after me and as he was driving through ash some guy came towards him on the same side of the road so matt had to swerve off and smashed up his front two tyres and had bumps and bruises. he was fine and thank fully the car lived but the message he left on my phone is almost heartbreaking, he sounds so sorry for not being able to come but i couldnt care less just as long as he is fine. he also sounded like he'd been crying which made me want to cry. but he was ok :) hes a tough lad, love him :)

:)

when i was younger and had birthdays i'd always had like different groups of friends and because of being young and stupid and fickle they used to hate each other so i'd dread my birthdays. for my 16th i had 2 separate meals cos i was so worried. i mean how stupid is that but last night it all just worked. it made feel happy, everyone knew each other or wasnt afraid to be introduced to eachother and it made me feel almost complete and that i had succeeded in being the best sort of friend to all of them.
i am 18
an adult
with mature, caring friends :)
i can drive
my family are amazing, crazy but definately amazing

thank you to everyone who came :)

much laaav x

is this bass really strong enough?

I am now 18 :D and loving it
I am now driving and loving it
could it get any better???

the thing i am most excited about is my party on saturday :D which is a Super Hero and Villain Theme :D and it will hopefully be a success as i know i'm not the only one who is getting excited about it and people have put the effort in to buy costumes :D
but there is always the worry that no one will turn up.. hmm but i'm trying to ignore that as much as possible.

I am going as BATGIRL and so far only know one other person going as that, and thats my aunty so i'm happy enough.

PARTYPARTYPARTY
i just hope my parents behave :)
xxx

Grint or Weasley?

possibly the best piece of advice i've ever given... lol
night before my birthday so i'm super hyper, a really lovely friend is totally down so I tried to help...
aparently it helped and i thought i'd write it down....

omg right ok
right
you're being too harsh on yourself
and sure this guy is a film star but in all honesty he cannot offer the same thing to hannah that you can, all the cinema tickets and stuff are superficial, throwing money around thats all good on the surface but if he doesnt hav the same amount of care and love for her that you have he has nothing on you! and i know its hard but maybe this has made you like her more because there is a challenger .
you my dear are making your life right now, you're at college doing the best you possibly can, you amazing at football and everyone knows that and its not a bad thing that its taken a back seat its just how things go atm. that boy is rich and famous but did shit all to get there fucking actor great, hes 21, will not want to settle for a girl hes just met, isnt as rich or like glamourous as he is (i dno i dont really know the girl so might be talking out of my arse) but not sounding harsh will he honestly care about some 17 year old girl he met at some party who he may have spent the night with in a month or so
you will be there for her, and you are there for her, right now because you still care about her enough to be upset by this, when its the right person its right. you dont need money to have magical romantic moments. one kiss, one look, one night in on the sofa can beat a million pound meal thats awkward and fake
you know its true mr and although its shit right now, you sometimes have to come through shit to get to the good stuff

speech over, any questions :)

i am a genius :) and i am excited

18 TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xx

luurve is a many trousered thing...

so its been a while since I wrote something but lifes been crazy, I'm not gonna start with music titles cos aparently I stole that off someone so i will stop haha even though music is amazing :)

after you read this listen to Wake Up Boo by the Boo Radleys SUCH A HAPPY SONG :D

All this half term I've been at Soldier Magazine doing work experience and working in the writers room which has been amazing. actually monday i was quite bored cos they didnt really seem to know what to do with me but then I started writing the reviews for the music and they're going to put that in the magazine! I'm actually gonna get some work published!!!!! They also let me keep all the new releases that I reviewed, which I could get used to haha.
I was also asked to write a news story and my first draft was clearly shit but then i spoke to Cliff the main reporter and he gave me amazing tips on how to improve and I used them and its going in the magazine too!!!!

You probably haven't heard of it but Soldier Magazine is themagazine for the entire of the British Army and gets shipped out all across the world so it is pretty big!!!
Tomorrow I'm going on a 2 hour drive with them to Salisbury Plain which is a big chunk of nothingness to watch an army excersise between british and turkish soldiers... i dont actually know what that is but the guarentee of fit squaddies is an extra bonus, shame i'll be covered in mud and in wellies lol
so hopefully after this week they will keep in touch with me and get me to do a few more things, they've given me an Xbox 360 game to review, which my brother was SOO excited about, and that doesnt have to be in for a few weeks so that good :D
I was told that my reviewing skills were "Excellant" and that they would "Pay someone to work for them and write that professionally!!!!!" talking hyperthetically of course.

But all experience is good experience, thats what i think!



back to ignorevous-ing as one diarest put it, a fictional diarest i may add, but one who followed me through my teen years. Georgia Nicholson aka books by Louise Rennison. AMAZING, BRILLIANT, FANTASTICO! and even by talking about them I turn back into an immature 13 year old. Me and my best friend were so engrossed in them that we labeled each other as the 2 main characters (She was Georgia the genius behind the hilarious diary and I was a mixture of Georgia and her best friend Jas, mainly because Jas was the sensible one with the long term boyf, bit geeky aswell) and the series of boys they encountered in the book e.g. Dave the Laugh, Sex God, Love God, Sexy Tom.. were all applied to the boys we went to school with a phrases like "Oh he's such a Dave the Laugh" came into regular use and spread to people who hadnt even read the books.

but alas we grew apart and now dont talk anymore but when we do share random annecdotes about Georgia Nicholson and her fictional escapades that saw us through puberty :D

Then the film was made..

bad move, although one of my fave films, it was no where near as good and amazing as the books :D same with most book to movies tho like Twilight, Harry Potter etc..

i will speak to you again after getting muddy with some squaddies ;)

love to all and to all good night xxxx

Marmite

There's something about listening to the arctic monkeys that just chills out any mood you're in and prepares you for whatever will happen next, whatever it will be. So i came in from college a little bit hyper for once rather than the usual 17 year old moody mood . But the hyper moos seemed to wind my family up even more so i thought to myself I'd crack out some arctic monkeys, their first album of course as that just takes you back to being young and farly careless.

So this blog doesn't really have a subject as its my first one, so i suppose its a tester for what i may write in the future.

A2 is literally a bitch! I now see that taking 4 subjects all with coursework at the same time was a baaad idea but i shall battle through due to my higher uni ambitions of Bournemouth. College, is a huge part of my life at the moment, has all my friends there, spend my whole week there and end up doing work for college when i'm not there. So if you had a bad college experience i spose you should stop reading now as the following posts will probably have alot of college content. I did that really annoying and embarrassing thing today, you know where you walk past someone you know and they look as if they're about to say hi so you just go HEYYY! *mad wave too* but they werent actually going to so you just look like a fool and they just quietly say 'Oh hiya' with a disapproving look to follow. I know too many people that I can't stop and have a conversation with, like i make friends then don't follow it up so i just have loads of aquaintances and then when i have to talk to them its quite awkward and all you can talk about is that one time you met and make the situations that happened funny even when you both know it clearly wasn't!! Which makes it more awkward. But I can be quite thick skinned so i just shrug it off most of the time :)

I don't actually know why I started a blog, I have had like trouble in the past with just having wayy too much to think about but thats another story, I've never been dedicated enough to write a diary fully. There has been the odd one, just cos I liked the look of the book or just bought the journal randomly cos it looked interesting but then I write entries for the first week or so and then stop and remember a month later. So I guess as I spend most of my time at home on my laptop I have more of an opportunity to write stuff and typing is just soo much easier than writing with pen and paper. I've always loved writing like since I was about 6 and handing five page stories to my primary school teachers to now wanting to be a journalist and the odd writing of my novels and stories. I really should crack on with my novels, I go to do it then say 'no i must do college work' but then do neither. I basically have a notebook thats falling apart now which contains up to 50 different ideas for different stories that I have just thought of randomly, for example i thought of one at a garden party, then another when I was on a plane to LA and they all span over about 7 years. Only a handful of people have actually read them, I think it took a year and a bit before I let my boyfriend to see them due to how personal they are. And I don't mean personal as in they're about my life or my secrets or whatever but just that they're my creation, from my head, something that I have taken the time to check then recheck and make as amazing as I can. But I know that I need to start up writing again and hopefully writing this blog to start with will give me the kick up the backside I need.


I have been told I could talk for England. Haha.

xx